Gone...

I cracked, finally.

When you are me, you let stuff build up over a certain amount of time and eventually one thing someone says sets you off and you crack. For me, I cry and swear (I know right). The swearing, usually comes before the crying.

Over the last few weeks things have been pilling up. Stress about the eisteddfod, knowing dances, school, not having my phone or twitter, bitches, insulting comments. They all build up. My friend, now names Bree, was telling me yesterday that I take things to heart, like little stupid things that aren't really even directed at me in particular. Like saying blondes are stupid, I am a blonde and even though that comment wasn't directed at me in general I was still hurt by it (apparently she could tell). Last night with my dance teacher didn't help. I felt like I was going to cry at everything she said to me. But today at school, this person I know, who I thought was nice, started saying that I was a bad person. Whether it was a joke or serious is beside the point because apparently either way I get hurt anyway. So I got angry at first and was like "I am leaving cause you are pissing me off". I got over to the ground my computer went spaz, and then I through it and cried. Yep. Thats how I work. Angry then cry. It's nuts!

GRRRRR!!!! I don't know what to do! I feel a bit better now, having cried it about a bit. But I am still on the brink of exploding. Well all I can do is wait to see what happens!